to do today!
honestly? ever since i decided that i wasn't going to bother with shaving but would still wear shorts/skirts/dresses my self confidence has gone up SO much...i feel a lot more confident in my identity as a gnc nonbinarry femme lesbian, and i finally feel like i can wear makeup but still be like. Visibly Lesbian
#.txt #like when i wore dresses and makeup before i ALWAYS had to throw on hiking boots and a flannel and any other lesbian hallmark #but now i feel like i can just. put a sundress on and still feel visibly not straight #bcos a BIG part of my identity is Needing to be seen as a lesbian! bcos thats...Basically What My Gender Is #anyway! #dnr3 notes
not 2 be like. emo on main. but i really wish i could just let myself cry!
like anyway! have only told two of my closest friends and No One Else but i john mulaney voice i figured i would tell all of you. but i May be. possibly. Maybe So. a gay trans man. but i have already come out to everyone i know as a lesbian. and also! what if this is all internalized lesbophobia/misogyny! but also there have been Possible Hints throughout my life that lead towards it. but therr are also Possible Hints thay lead towards me being a lesbian. but maybe me thinking that is internalized transphobia/homophobia!
and i Know if i do actually like men. it is not as a woman. like i can't explain How i know that but i just DO. so maybe im a bi man?
like i wish there was a Definitive Test that could tell me for SURE. because this is all SO messy and i can't tell where its heteronormativity and internalized shit or Actually Me or just me being raised on the internet or what! This Shit Is So Messy
good lord i am really going to live the rest of my life without my brother. like i will have to observe the one year anniversary of his suicide. five years. ten years. one day i'll forget what his voice sounded like. like not to be selfish but i think thats a bit unfair! just a little bit fucked up
goblincore is sexy but also my smart jewish brain is like. hm. sounds suspicious
one of my mutuals on tumblr made a donations post bcos their parents cut them off and they ended up getting legitimate anon hate over it and people calling them a kike like....goyim is the same.